the day when my dreams come TRUE ^___^

hello~!!!
dh selamat smpai di bumi msia smlm dgn selamat dan hati gembira tk terkata~!!
well, yeah..one of my dreams has became true last weekend...mcm ye tk ye aku finally dpt realisasi kan impian sekali dlm seumur hidup...dpn melihat matsujun, sho, nino, aiba and ohno dpn mata seems unbelieveable!!! hehe..mcm mimpi!!

well, perjalanan ke shanghai is very interesting...tmpt tinggal...subway facilities, mknn halal sng nk dpt...n Shanghainese ppl mmg nice...but cuma depa heran ngape kami nih berhijab...lain2 OK n fine jek...

cuma satu jek kejadian yg tk best berlaku...
my camera dicuri org huhu~!!! i dont know when and where exactly it happened..sedar2 camera dh tkde kt beg...but syukur...bkn brg2 penting lain eg passport, money, hp yg hilang...kalo hilang sume...xtau cmna nak wat...

so kalo nk tgk gmba2 lain...sila check lg page nih dlm bbrapa ari lg...sbb aku tgh tnggu gmba dr kwn aku nyer camera lak..

so till then...
wawa~!! kembali focus wawa~!!!!!!!!!!!!!

S.E.C.R.E.T

kalo ikut masa comp aku...
1day left...hoorayyyy~!!!

time: day after tomorrow
destination: secret~!!
days off: 4days
purpose: jalan2 smbil tgk pemandangan (btol laaa kan???)
preparation: almost 100% done..tnggal last minute nk check blk jek...
others: dear frenz..plz pray hard for me..pray for my journey safely...pray me back in 1piece (mcm nk g perang jek...)

comment: kalo sume SECRET, serupa tk yh citer kt sini wawa~!!! =)

cite yg ganazzzz!!

br sat td tgk citer kt tv2...
tajuk nya Urban Legend..
gila ganazzzzz~!!

mula2 utk 20min pertama..aya n ros jek yg tgk..
aku dok dlm bilik tgh mamai...
trbgn pon sbb dgr diorg jerit2..
aku kuar bilik...aku join skali...
dgn tk tau pape pon flow citer nya..
aku bodo2 tgk jek...

pastuh...lepas 30-40min jek citer mula..
aku plak tgk sorang2...
sbb ros dh masuk bilik dia (wat research ehhhh?? =p)
pas2..tnggal aku sorang2 tgk tv..
aya plak dok surfing dlm bilik dia..
dia tumpang aku jerit2 jek..pasai dia dh prnh tgk sblm nih..
so kali ini aku thrill sorang2....
gila ganazz citer tuh!!! aku asyik jerit jek...
brapa kali kena kejutan dia...
sume nyer psl bunuh2...bunuh2 pon cara dia gila kejam!!!
tp aku tk sngka lak aku leh brtahan tgk sorg2 cite tuh smpai abes...

15min sblm citer nk abes..
aya n ros join aku smula...
tumpang jerit2 lg..
jd bila dh dicmpur jerit aku +aya + ros...phm2 laa keadaan umah nih (ampun dewi...housemateku wat bising)
tp aku tk sngka ending citer tuh cmtuh..
rupanya bespren dia sendiri yg bunuh sume org tuh...
sbb nk balas dendam...
pastuh aku trpk...
"wei korang..aya, ros...tkde dendam ngn aku kannnn?"
aku takut kejadian citer tuh terjadi pd aku..
baik aku declare lu kt sini..hikhik...

ok, aku nk layan nyeping plak~!!

lalalala...as expected, things aren't going E.A.S.Y for me~

hehe..best laaa wat title post panjang2..
bila wat title post pendek2...mcm tk puas jek...

fuhhh penatttttt..br je landing bumi upm...drive dr bentong pagi td...
planning nk blk kajang smlm....tp MALAS!!
lgpon...cite kt tibi best sgt2~!!
*padahal, mak masak mcm2 kt umah..tuh yg liat nk blk sini kuikui*

ok laa....nape ehh tajuk aku mcm tuh ehh?? nape ehh??
*akibat byk membaca blog dd dudu, ayat2 aku dh jd nk ala-ala dia*

erm...cmnih, blk kg ari tuh, sambil tgn pegang stereng...drive nk blk....kepala aku dok pk je cmna cara nk implement project aku nih...
aku diberi 2weeks time je nih...gerun dh!!!
aku kalo buleh tknk laaa wat data structure (aka DS...mcm nama game nintendo aya plak hikhik) kn...sbb mmg payah gila!!! *dulu2 aku suka meniru encek tunang kepada cek tunang ros*
tp nye..spnjg perjlnan tuh, lgsg tk dpt nk pk pape cara lain pon...
jd nya...disbbkan aku mmg dh nk blk kg kan....jd aku berhajat nk laa cr blk sume material aku time degree dulu...cehhhh aku kira cm confident laa kan...sbb rasa2 nya cm ada laa kot material berguna yg aku jpe nnt...
jd bila dh kt umah, aku dok laaa geledah sume notes DS /exam paper DS/exercises DS/lab DS yg aku smpn dlm kotak free amik kt SS dulu...
aku tau sume harta aku ada dlm tuh...so aku keep on cari, cari dan cari....
TAPI!!!!
sume material DS yg aku jpe...sket pon tkde kena mengena ngn ape yg aku nk buat nih!!!
ingtkn lab DS yg aku ada 2..ada laaa kot cth coding cmna nk wat node/tree/struct ke kan...
tp rupanya, lab DS yg aku ada adalah lab #1 & lab #2 jek yg simple exercise jerk!!!
SEDEYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!! *padan muka sndirik..pk nk snenang je kan....*

lantas itu *formal sket*..
aku pon terduduk disisi kotak kuning itu me-recall balik time2 aku blaja dulu....
tp aku pasti, dn aku sgguh ingat...dulu waktu lab DS...mmg prnh ada wat coding psl create node/tree/struct cmtuh laaaa....sbb paper soklan lab tuh aku ada jumpa....tp codingnya di mana???
owh...rupa2nya dulu, encek demo (en. yunus..tutor kt fak aku nih yg jd demo aku dulu)...
prnh amek email address kitorg sume...sbb dia nk emel kan skema jwpn kepada kitorg...
mslhnya...aku dh tk ingt email address mana yg aku bg pd dia dulu!!! pasai dulu suka tukar2!!!
*huarghhhhh jerit sekuat hati*

lgpon...dulu subject DS amat laaa susah *tk caye..tnya cek ewoss..kan ewos kan???*
aku ngaku aku mmg niru jek coding DS nih dulu drp encek sifu laaa ...
smpai dh dpt di trace oleh en yunus pon...masih leh wat cool jerk...
itu sbb dh lampi sgt lab yg ujung2 tuh kan...tuh yg en yunus email kn je skema jawapan...

jd nya..bila skg nk guna..nk pakai...lgsg dh tak tau pape...
huhu~!!! mampukah aku nk setel dlm masa 2weeks nih????
*pusing keliling meja...pastu pengsan*

jadi, sbb 2 aku guna tajuk cm2 kali nih...
bila ditranslate ke BM...
"tak semua nya mudah untuk aku"
ala-ala nak jd cm novelis plak...
kena kan jalan crita aku ngn tajuk post aku kan?? tindak balas (reflects??? huh??) kan???

pastuh sudahnya..aku dh tk tau cmna nk ending citer nih...


moral 1: jgn meniru waktu belaja...dulu benci, skg kena apply...kan dh trkial2 sorang2!!!
moral 2: as expected...xde pape yg senang...bersusah2 dahulu, bersenang2 kemudian...

WARNING: post yg agak emo m(_ _)m

alhamdulillah..
dh selesai pon aku present progress report ptg tadi...
so far, dpt respons yg memberangsangkan...
honestly, tk sangka dpt respons sebegitu sbb prepare slide is just 2hours before the presentation...
tp nasib baik laaa..the contents aku dh siap draft dr mlm sebelum...
siap tk tido lg mlm semlm...tido nk dekat pg..itupon hnya 3hrs je kot...
but whatever it is...
from the reponses i've received...
at least it could fire up my desire again to continue exploring in this field (at least a bit ada laaa...)...

so...kepada cek ewoss, cek lina, cek pda, cek dd dudu...
good luck ye next week!!! nnt aku temankan korg present lak...
kita dh mulakan sesuatu, jd kita harus habiskan hingga selesai...
never give up..keep on thinking...
everyone ada chances utk berjaya..insya ALLAH!!

note to self: Allah telah memudahkan urusan ku kali ini..alhamdulillah...
tp jgn berpuas hati skg...cabaran akan dtg lbh mencabar...
sesungguhnya ilmu tuh indah jika kita tau melihat dr sudutnya...

it's going to be FINE...

hora!!
esok ada seminar progress evaluation utk semester ini...
kecut perut aku walaupun presentation petang (konon mcm ada byk masa lg laa kn hikhik)...
tapi, disebabkan ada dua Dr. R n Dr. H yg very the scary tuh...
woah~!! siyes kecut perut!!!!

come to think of the progress thingy...
what is exactly am i doing for this semester...hermmmmmm huh??!!
owh, i've been busy with the demostrator work for the whole semester!!! patut laaa pon cm rasa sekejap je dh abes semester kan (sbnrnya, jd alasan nk escape dr sv tuh hikhik...)...
but dh mmg betul, tiap kali sv wat meeting jek..mst aku tk attend sbb dia slalu wat on thursday..hari yg aku perlu ngaja...jd it's not exactly escape laaa kan...huahahaha~ *alasan nk selamat lg*..

sudahnya...esok is the evaluation day..
mak aihhhhhh!!!! mula laa terkial2 ape laa material yg nk dipresent...
yg ada pon...mcm tkde progress pon...dok tang tu jugak dr dulu...
cmna nk evaluate progress cmtuh kan???

TAPI...
evaluation is made based on efforts yg kita wat kan...so dont expect to have an outstanding evaluation if only the efforts stkt ala ala kan...kalo bagus keje kita, bagus laa yg kita dpt...kalo ala ala gitu...bersiap sedia laa nk argue/defend kita nye idea kan....so, that's some of the risks yg i've face masa study ni...it's all totally depends on YOU!!
hermmmm.....hadoi laaaa...
poning2...

BUT...
dr instinct aku nih...*tak tau leh pakai ke tak kan*
it's going to be FINE insya Allah...
hopefully it's really going fine laaaa *ya Allah perkenan kn permohonan hamba Mu ini..Amin..*

but, sendiri mau ingat laaa..
i know myself better than the other people...
i know how much/less efforts hv i put to come out with the proposal (even though, byk kali kena 'fire' ngn sv n co-sv from the last semester)...
so stkt mana aku mampu buat..i'll try my best...i'll do...
yg tak mampu buat or tak mampu nak fikir...
jgn jd mcm bijak sgt or the other word...jgn jd bongkak knows everything...
find the source that may direct/lead u ke arah yg betul....
because the fact is that im not that good after all..
im just a human who is struggle to find which is right, which is wrong for me...
so wawa, ganbarre yo~!!!

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TAPI..
nape skg aku rasa mengantuk ni!!!!! *tension mode*
m(_ _)m

Boys Over Flower addicted ^^

Kyaaaaaaaa~!!!!!!! matsujun!!! *ok, i know well my budak forum confirm tk baca post aku kt sini*

ok, im hooked already wif this song...
it's by Aiko called Kisshug...douzo~!!



gila~!! hari ini je xtau dh berapa ratus kali dok pusing2 lagu yg sama~!!!

annnnddddd..
im thinking of going again for the 3rd times maybe on this wednesday...
who cares rite???!!! XD

edit on tuesday:
tak jd pegi ari rabu..sbb dh pergi tgk sorang2 td kat TGV Sunway...dpt ladies price RM8..ok laaa tuh kan...sorang2 tgk pon best gak..leh makan pop corn sorang2 kannnnn ^^;

just a reminder for myself...

at first place,
i really dont know what the h**l am i choosing this way...
i mean now!! what am i doing here~

day by day,
without any improvement,
either in ur life,
or in ur daily business,
u'll feel bad for urself...
while u're a degree holder, a mid 20-s but then...
u're not creating/producing/ or even changing urself into a better of yours!!

am i choosing the right path right now??? huh~??
i feel sorry for myself...

i advice u guys, who are thinking of continuing study to the next level,
pls pls pls think twice either u have the courage/spirits/ to challege yourself,
or maybe it is just for ur self-satisfaction of getting to the upper level of education (i mean master degree laa...),
or u just wanna take the opportunity without even preparing ur mind, soul etc of urself...
pls pls clarify ur target/goal!!

but then remember,
studies is not something that u can take easy...it promises a lot of happiness/advantages at the end of the road but to achieve it, train urself to stay stronger....pray for the best!!

the secrets:
learn to explore,
stand independently,
think creatively,
love the knowledge,
and the most of all things,
believe that the knowledge will benefit u someday even if u cant see it now...
and of course pray and doa for the better life and keep the soul clean...

note to self: if i cant make it now, i'm wasting 2 and half years of my life...but do not regret, prove urself before ppl point at u as useless!!! no pain, no gain~

*mana cahayaku!! melinda help!!! huahaha..tuh dh cahaya lain tuh!!*

K.E.M.E.K bunyinye ape??

hehe...lps raya nih, bese laaa jemputan umah terbuka mmg byk...setiap minggu ada je g sana sini g memenuhi jemputan..kepada fati dan ain, sorry laaa, these 2weeks aku ada di KL, so tk dpt le nk g open house umah korg ke bentong tuh...

so smlm, blk dr sg buloh...plan nk berjalan2 bersama cek suraya yg setia menemani di sebelah aku....setelah kenyang di umah kak paie (akhirnya hajat nk mkn lontong termakbul di umah kak paie yay!!)...kami bergerak menuju haluan masing2...perjalanan pulang, kami berpecah membawa haluan sendiri stlh tk larat menekan minyak mengejar si encek keri dn encek izwan yg sungguh laju ketika kami berkonvoi ke sg buloh pagi itu...(korang2 encek berdua..im still a woman driver ok??? len kali kalo berkonvoi ngn pompuan, pls consider us ok?? hahah..dd dudu n ewoss, sowy!!)....

jd setelah aku n cek suraya decide nk g The Mines je...jd kami meneruskan perjalanan mencari arah pulang sendiri mengikut arah papan tanda (signboard?? hahah)...setelah sudah pasti akan arah kami, tibalah kami di tol (aku tk ingat tol ape) dan berbaris di laluan tunai...elok2 aku ingin merehatkan kaki smbil menuggu giliran kami, skali.....

"Dush....gedegang!!"

aku dn cek suraya berpandangan sesama sendiri....

"ehhhhh???? nape??" cek suraya bertanya pd aku...

aku yg pastinya tidak tahu menahu sekadar menggelengkan kepala...aku tgk keta depan, ok SAFE...tkde pape cacat...(gila!! keta depan aku 2 mercedes!!)...

"sah2 nih mesti org cium bontot keta nih..." aku berkata dalam hati..

aku pndg side mirror blkg..aku nmpk byg2 org je dlm keta berwarna hitam....tp ketika itu, aku tidak berhajat utk terus turun kereta dn pergi check apa berlaku kan (byk keta berbaris lorr..) jd aku tunggu hingga selesai membayar tol, baru aku berhenti di sisi jalan...tp aku msh kaku di dalam kereta, dan hanya cek suraya yg pergi check keadaan belakang kereta ku...

rupa2nya sah sudah kereta ku K.E.M.E.K!!!! huargh!! ketaku dicium.....dan juga setelah keta blkg td selesai membayar tol, dia juga berhenti skali lg di blkg keta ku (nasib baik dia benti...)...dan rupa2nya, yg keluar dr kereta ku itu ada lah ppuan melayu juga (nasib baik laaa...)

dan ketika itu, aku tiada mood nk marah2...aku hanya pasrah dan redha sahaja...sudah nasib keta aku nk dicium hari ini, jd kami (aku wakilkan pd cek suraya utk berckp dgn dia) utk menguruskan hal ini...kata sepakat dicapai, dia akan melunaskan bayaran pembaikan keretaku...

sudahnya, aku membawa keretaku ke bengkel di serdang, dan mekanik memberitahu hanya perlu diketuk sahaja bumper itu, dan mugkin juga akan dispray sekiranya rupa kereta ku seperti tidak cantik...namun, proses itu memakan masa selama 3jam, dan memandangkan kami seperti malas utk menunggu, jadi kami decide utk menghantar pada hari isnin sahaja...jd setelah kami pasti keretaku selamat utk dipandu, kami meneruskan niat pergi ke The Mines dan berjalan2 utk melegakan perasaan...

sket je maaa...tp aku cite mcm teruk kan?? XDDDDD

namun, setelah dipikir2...sepanjang aku membawa keta selama 4tahun ini di KL, tidak pernah hayatku kereta ini kemalangan, atas sebab aku atau sebab orang lain....tidak pernah sama skali...hanya sekali hari itu, tayarku pecah, tp itu tidak dikira kemalangan kan??? itu disebabkan lubang bergigi di jalan UPM, jadi aku kira, ini adalah pengalaman pertama aku merasa kereta ku dihentak dr belakang...huhu~ apakah naseb....

so esok, nak g hantar kereta, dan kemudian nak ajak cek ewoss makan Chop & Steak yg trltk bersebelahan dgn bengkel kereta yg akan ku hantar nanti! mau ya cek ewoss??

**sesungguhnya, aku benci ayat skema aku hari ini....korang yg membaca, terima aje laaa....

overdose dgn para makanan~

erk..alhamdulillah....
hehe..saja je nk wat separate post, kata page aku kn ^^ lalala~

minggu ni je, subhanallah!! para makanan yg masuk ke perut ku...mcm ye tk ye jer...
mula dr isnin pergi kenny rogers ngn budak umah aku, amek quarter meal black paper yg mengancam tu...
diikuti ari selasa makanan di bazar yg mencecah 10++rm...kemudian sahurnya mkn ayam McD yg di delivery oleh brother McD...
kemudian rabu, makan sata import dr terengganu yg amat laaa byk nya dibeli oleh sedara aku,
dengan diikuti ari khamis, smbg makan sata dn tambahan lg makanan di bazar....
kemudian jumaat makan kt secret recipe bersama cek eross smbil dihiburkan dgn tarian org cina yg tk dijemput...
dan sabtu, pergi makan bersama adik aku di jusco...tak cukup nasi goreng ayam di pinggan sendiri...cukai sikit kue tiow goreng di pinggan anaz...dan malam itu, aku call lagi 1-300-13-1300 untuk order bubur ayam McD lagi utk bersahur...
dan hari ini, hari ahad...berbuka bersama sengal2 fati,eena,sarip dan samin di Madam Kwan,MidValley...amek nasi bojari yg harganya 20.50rm se-plate...aku ni kalo byr mkn buat2 buta mata je...nasi aku licin, kemudian pergi masuk jusco beli meal japanese fish teriyaki don utk sahur, dan juga tako kt luar jusco tu...bli gk utk cek eros yg memesan tako gak...keluar jusco, pergi pulak masuk sushi king lagi...makan barang 2-3 plate yg berwarna pink+beige+beige...dan juga ais krim ikan...

balik umah, lepak tgk tv, mandi dn smbg makan lg, makan fish teriyaki don...ingt nk simpan sahur, tp mcm dh tk sempat dh....pastu alang2 dh makan tuh, smbg laa lg makan tako yg aku beli...

hahaha....tengok2..minggu nih je, duit yg aku keluarkan utk perut ku...dh melebihi dr yg sepatutnya..hello perut~!!!! ko tak kenyang2 lagi ke??

pulak tu, tak tau nafsu apa aku ada kt sushi king tu, aku siap register jd member pulak tu, utk dpt 2voucher berharga 10rm sekeping, dan juga utk menikmati sushi pada promosi bonanza (13okt-16okt2008) depan dengan harga 2rm sepinggan bagi semua jenis plate...gila ape aku???

so, sesiapa yg rasa nk menumpang 2rm se-plate sushi pada tempoh yg disebutkan di atas..sila-sila lah berbuat baik dan bermanis-manis dengan aku...lebih manis jika dihulurkan bersama duit raya utk aku =)

suka hati korang laaaa~

hahaha~
sebelum tu, aku nak paste msg kwn aku yg terlebih concern kt aku...

"F a T i
Posted 09/10/2008 12:29 am
cik wa..aku rase blog ko tuh cm dh penuh sawang je.ntah2 spiderman dh bermastautin kat situh "

haha...jawapan aku ->> suka hati aku laaa kn page aku...
pastu dia kata aku kerek~ hahaha...lantak laaa lalalalalalala =)

pastu, bila pergi fakulti, jumpa dd pukpuk diana, dia pun kata benda yg sama...
semua pertanyaan dan ke'concern'an korang, membuat kan aku terpikir...
"ada ke org nk amik tau psl aku haaaa??"
hahhaah...suka hati korang laaaaaa...

lalalalala~~

Mama Tam dalam kenangan..

hari ini, 11 Jun 2008..genap 4 tahun pemergian arwah Mama Tam ke Rahmatullah...4 tahun lalu, ketika kami sekeluarga bercuti di Cameron Highlands, selepas makan malam yg terakhir, dia pergi meninggalkan kami buat selama2nya tanpa tanda, tanpa pesanan terakhir..dia pergi begitu saja tanpa sempat aku membuat persediaan...hingga saat ini, mustahil untuk aku jejak kaki ke Cameron Highlands sekali lagi...untuk tahun ini, tahun depan dan tahun berikutnya...adalah tak mungkin...

saat2 terakhir, gambar kenangan 12jam sebelum pemergiannya... along, anaz, mama tam n me

"Dia meninggalkan ku tanpa keturunan untuk ku menyambung kasih dan sayangku terhadapnya...hanya doa berterusan yang mampu ku titip bagi mengiringi perjalannya...moga Allah memelihara rohnya...amin..
Al-fatihah..."

pesanan ku, hargai setiap org di sekeliling kita, setelah dia pergi meninggalkan kita, tak mungkin dia kembali ke sisi kita...setiap saat bersama org yg kita sayang adalah sgt2 berharga....jika kita benar2 sayang akan seseorang, nyatakan terus..bimbang hari esok tiada untuk kita, atau mungkin tiada untuk dia...ketika itu, menyesal sudah tiada gunanya...

*hingga saat ini, tiada lagi suara yg menyahut panggilan 'Mama Tam' dariku..satu2nya perkara yg sangat2 amat aku rindui...namun panggilan tinggal panggilan, tidak berjawab...moga dikau berbahagia di sana...*

it is YOU!!!

Lily my dear,
i'll always pray for the BEST for you...
sabar, tabah dan tenang dalam kehidupan ini...
berserah pdNya, insya Allah Dia tetap mendengar dan memakbulkan segala niat baik di dalam hati kita..
u're my best cousin...n i'll love u as always...

just give me a BREAK!!

im going back to my hometown today...
i won't bring my laptop,
i won't bring my HD,
i won't bring my arashi stuffs,
i won't bring my books,
i won't bring my papers,
i won't bring any works,
i want to freeze everything,
i dont want to be attached of anything that i used to be called 'a dream'...

i just wanna be a daughter of my mummy and abah,
be a sister of anaz and amar,
be a little sis of along and angah,
and be an aunty of wani,
in a place where i called heaven....

sorry dear,
i need to recover some 'things'..
i just need my old-me back..
i do only want to hibernate...


regards,
m(_ _)m
::me::

This is soooo not ME!!

WARNING: This post contains unrelated-feeling-emotional of yours, so if u are not interested to read it, or u have a very great day today, plz don’t spoil ur day, u can just ignore and skip this post. TQ..

sooo much pain, depression things happened in my life lately…it’s a time to burst it out but bear in minds this is not in details…as I will keep the remains inside me, just for me…

Monday (07/04/08)
Nadiah and Sofea call aku ari ni, it is good to know that there is always someone who always cares about you…thanx to nadiah, as she tried to calm me down and tried to understand me… yes, no one could understand how close me and lily…lily, she understand me really1000x well, she always there whenever I need someone to talk to, to burst my anger, to cry or to be happy with, she is always be there for me…she can understand my feelings, my inner emotional feeling, my strength, she knows me sooo well, but somehow, on this coming 1st may, I will lose her to someone, she will not belongs to me anymore…she will not be mine…at one time aku rasa mcm tk nak balik 1may ni nnt…I want to stay here, in my rooms where all my privacy things keeps inside…but I know, she wants me to be beside her, i cant do that…yes, but the question is…do I strong enough to face it up?? I don’t know… dan pada mummy aku cerita kan segala2 nya…dia melihat aku menangis…dia mengetahui bgmana aku rasa..TQ mom!!

Tuesday (08/04/08)
Aku demam…batuk + selesema yg tiba2 dtg..perit tekak panas hidung yg tiba2 menyerang…but it is good as I can look back inside myself, the good, the bad things that I hv done…yea..demam penghapus dosa…

Wednesday (09/04/08)
The biggest depression things for this week…my paper for KMICE conference has been rejected…F.R.U.S.T.R.A.T.E.D!!! I have put my 100% (yes even more!!) efforts in writing this paper, but that is not enough!!! the fact is maybe im not good enough now as I’m already getting older and older….but why does it happened?? am I not that good?? Somehow, buat aku terpikir, “what am I doing now?” ini jalan yg aku pilih sebelum aku decide berhenti keje dulu..tp for some reasons, I can’t reach certain standards that I have set for myself…why?? Why and why??? Berulang kali aku baca comment dr referees, but it seems that it is not that big or major mistakes, but it is just…ermm..i don’t know why..

Thursday (10/04/04)
Lost of confidence, lost of spirits…yes…my spirits somehow went down today…missing in my own path…I need something to cheer me up and in the end, late at the evening, I treat myself to the chop n steaks restaurant in serdang..

Friday (11/04/08)
Thing 1:
Finally, I met my supervisor to seek for his comment about that referees comment of my paper…well, he said that there is only couple of things that I need to rewrite again...but he was telling me “jgn berasa kecewa, jgn berasa frust..bayangkan kamu sedang berenang, berenang ke dasar laut, makin dalam, makin kamu nmpk cntiknya dasar itu, dan akhirnya kamu akan menjumpai sesuatu…dan tentang sesuatu itulah yg kamu nk bgtau dan tunjukkan pada semua..dont ever ever feeling give up..” this is how he said…yeah..he was a good advisor..i know that..*semangat bertambah sket*

Thing 2:
Pn zaihisma, tempat aku merujuk about things on my studies, is going to be a permanent lecturer in Uniten starting 12th may….owh!! she will not be around at faculty right after that…rasa berat utk aku as I always discuss things that I could not really understand with her instead of discussing with my supervisor…she is really great reference for me…. *spirits went down a bit*

Thing 3:
Late at the evening, my old good friend, jat had messaged me “wawa..hng kt ne, aku ptg mgkin nk g mkn sate kajang hj samuri”…it has been ages I don’t meet her…dan mmg nk sgt2 dn rindu nk jpe dia…and at last, dia dtg kajang!! at least, there is something that could cheer me up today!! and bersama2 aya (thanx aya!!..dlm ko skt2 perut teman aku, that time I just need teman as I feel like insecure driving alone at night…don’t know why??)..kitorg g mkn sate + nasi grg pattaya + milo ais + treat jat and aya makan…padahal, lunch td aku dh mkn kfc, and breakfast dh mkn ns lemak + blnja ros sebungkus…it feels good when you can treat or cheer someone else when u, urself is feeling down…and I always spend more my RM on foods when im depressed…that is how I am…



me n jat..jat sweets as always!!

ok, that is all for now…as I hv warned u all before, just skip this post if u are feeling reluctant to read this…it is ok for me…and I don’t mind!!

wani, 1 tahun dah...

last 2weeks, 23/o3/08 ada buat mkn2 sempena birthday wani yg ke-1 thn..hehe..kejap je budak nih dh besar...tp since gmba majlis tkde pd aku skg..ada kt future-adik-ipar (insya Allah ^^) aku...so later aa br aku letak gmba majlis 2.. skg ni, ada gmba budak tenit nih tgh dok cuba2 nk bukak adiah sendiri..so sila2 tgk ^__^

mata sepet ikut family belah aku...

haha..kalo dh baby pompuan, mesti dpt baju cantik2..

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gambar sekitar majlis wani..

balloonsssss...
kek yg aku deko muka mickey mouse..tp comot!!

abg lily yg free and available..if interested, PM me ok?? leh nmpk flash camera

UPM ohhh UPM!!!

hai minna!!!
minggu lps, ari selasa (25/03/08)..after blk kelas mlm dlm kul 920pm..ujan renyai2...
pastuh kn, malang tk berbau..aku telah langgar lubang yg besar gila kt dpn fakulti kejuruteraan UPM..smpai tayar aku pecah...malang tul!!!

nilah rupa tayar aku stlh melanggar lubang....peronda silk, mekanik kata aku ganas bwk keta...o_O..ya ke??

pastuh yg aku hangin nya..ari selasa this week, after blk kelas, waktu yg sama...lalu jln yg sama..lubang yg aku lnggr last week dh diturap!!!!
uwarghhhh!!! nape tk dr minggu lps je turap jln??? nape UPM ooohhh nape???

jadi, berterbangan laa RM bln nih..hehe...tp abah byr kn dulu, aku byr bulan2 ^^

sekian~~

d i n n e r

mlm td..aku n eross g mkn kt umah atok...atok pnggil dtg mkn...hehe... dh lama tk rasa mskn atok..skali skala dpt mkn best jugak!!!

TQ atok for the lovely dinner!!! ^___^ros sdg bersedia untuk mencekik ^^

ok laaa..kami mkn lu~~~yummy!!!

sometimes...

sometimes...things that u are really wishing for, doesn't work the way u want to..
sometimes...things that u really hope for, turns to happen the other way round...
sometimes...things that u well-planned for future, it remains as the same situation as before...
till when u feel tired enough, yet there is no sign to be happened..
do we need to wait for miracle till happens??
to ensure things become reality???
i really don't know, till the minute i typed this..
i am still exploring, adventuring my life for fulfilling the hopes..
the hopes of many people...i guess so..





*yes...not everything that we wish for, will turn into reality...i just hope for the best for myself!!!*

entry macam2 banyak2 sekaligus untuk hari ini...

hola minna-san!!!

hehe..berita baik nya..aku dh amek lappy aku dr klinik hp last friday!! horrayyyy!! betapa gumbiranya aku!! mcm2 khazanah aku ada dlm nih.. so aku rindu laaa sgt2.. haha...nak citer...dekstop aku nih..gmba tut tut tut...hehe, so org kt klinik hp ni at 1st, ingt silap bg laptop kt aku..since diorg tgk dekstop aku nih macam??!!%#^% haha!!! klaka tol depa tuh...well, aku assume maybe sape2 pon akan pk cmtuh kot..since dekstop aku mmg tk sesuwei..haha...no wonder laa!!

nih laa rupa dekstop lappy aku..hehe..xpelik laa kn..^^

then, sabtu..seperti bese aku n aya dating skali lg @ klcc...this time aku drive...kami wat sistem giliran...aman rumah tngga..tkde gado2..haha...g klcc amek???...cm bese laa..brg kt kino...aku syg kino!!! hehe..then, lps tuh, g burger king..mangan2 tghari..yummy!!

aya mkn beger-black-pepper...yummy!!

nih aku nyer lunch...double yummy!!! ermmm...design kt bekas air berger king nih, cam cover arashi dvd aku laa..tema kaler merah+coklat-cream..exactly cm cover arashi aku...xcaya tgk sini...

waktu tgh mangan2...2x kali kami di interrupt...huh!!! dua2 pon pnggil kami akak...ano...adakah kami kelihatan seperti akak??? tidak!!!

ok laa...tuh jer..sekian~till then, mata ne!!~~

tiring week..

ok, last week, tgh sebuk2 org nk ngundi, my lovely aunty kena msk spital 1day b4 org buang undi utk operate masuk besi kt lutut...so, since almost two weeks before 2, aku dh byk settle down my works, so secara kebetulan, hari yg my aunty kena operate, aku free laa plak, so i decided to accompany lily, and wait with her at HKL, so hari tuh, very early in the morning (7am), kitorg dh siap g ke spital...but then, my aunty dh already masuk ke operation theatre (OT), so me and lily decided to hv breakfast..and while waiting for the operation selesai, kitorg pon g klcc lg..hehe...klcc tuh dh jd cm tmpt feveret lak...then, after blk dr klcc, we headed straight 2 the hospital again, tp my aunty still in OT...so ptg tuh dlm kul 4.30pm br dia kuar dr bilik tuh...alhamdulillah sume dh selamat, dn selesai...

gmba entrance spital

then, mlm jumaat..aku blk bentong tumpang sepupu....ari sabtu pg, my future-sis-in-law (cewah...blom rasmi lg pon sbnrnya..) dtg umah utk pertama kali nya....and sng2 dh mudah nya my parents bg approval kt along aku utk proceed...maybe jodoh kot..aku doakan kesejahteraan mereka...then, ptg sabtu, my parents g visit my aunty kt HKL, aku tk ikut so aku jd bibik je kt umah..jaga budak wani yg dh semakin lasak bangat!!!!

then, ahad aku blk smula ke spital and mlm 2 aku tido spital, nyempit2 sm ngn lily...tido atas lantai (such a great experience!!)..and monday tuh, aku temankn my aunty kt spital, since lily ada appoitment ngn dentist...so, kebetulan, bandage kaki aunty aku nk kena buka monday tuh, so aku dpt laa capture pic fresh nyer lutut after operation...hehe..

diorg stapler je kulit tuh..nih 1st time aku tgk..so aku jd jakun jap!! eeiiii..ngeri!!!

and, kebetulan, monday 2 (hr yg sama)..ayah lily aka husband my aunty, kena msk ijn lak pg tuh utk tebuk kt pangkal peha utk masukkan saluran (is like cm gel) utk clear kn saluran kt paru2 dia...then, my cousin aka abg lily tunggu ayah dia di ijn, while me teman aunty @ HKL...that time, mcm2 rasa...cmpur baur...tp tawakal je laaa...dan alhamdulillah, pakcik aku pon selamat, and luckily, pakcik aku leh discharge hari yg sm..tp mlm kul 10pm...actually aku kena blk that monday gak sbb tuesday aku ada kelas, but then, since keta aku tinggal kt umah long boy, so i have to wait for my uncle discharge, br aku leh tumpang ngah bobby amek keta kt umah long, and then headed back to kajang jugak mlm tuh dlm kul 1030pm cmtuh...

so, as conclusion mmg laa minggu yg sgt2 memenatkan, but aku puas sbb dpt jaga aunty yg satu2nya aku ada skg....tapi, yg buat aku sedih...aku teringat kn arwah mama tam aku, yg sempat aku jaga and teman dia di spital masa dia sakit dulu...al-fatihah utk arwah mama tam...i really miss u soooo much!!

entry syok sendiri...

ok2..aku tau, aku jerk yg sronok bila dpt benda nih (aya sonok ngn step and go dia..)..
hepi nye tk terkata!!! my aya-chan!! TQ soooo much...so, i dedicate this bouquet of flowers for u aya!!! (next time, leh tumpang ko lg eh eh eh??) hehe...nih aku amek dr page kak chal...mmg gorgeous flowers nih!!

so, this is mine!!! auuwwww!! cant help myself...im dying for this!!!

ok daa....i better stop here...jaa ne~~

Petrosains @ KLCC with Aya-chan

halllo!!! haha...ok2..ari tuh g jln2 klcc dgn satu tujuan..amik barang penting kt kino, then g visit petrosains ni actually is un-planned...tp tk ksh laa...nk ngabeh kn masa, we juz go je laaa...ok now, here i paste our leisure time @ petrosains, klcc..so hv fun!!

smpt amik gmba ms pusing2 nk cari parking..

dpn kino...

hehe...aya kannn suka paste gmba aku kt blog dia tau..so skg aku paste gmba aya byk2 kt blog aku lak..haha..

aya sdg tunjuk peace-sign!!
aya sdg uji kestabilan tangan...mana aci pegang dua2 tangan aaa!!
K.A.M.I...konon2 nk amik gmba ngn ikan2 yg byk kt kolam blkg kitorg tuh...tp skali kn..ikan2 tuh malu..jd dpt laa amik gmba muka besa kitorg nih jerk..kui3..

me as part of the patung...kaler baju sama laa plak..

ok dh...2 je..sekian~~

tidak!!!!

maaf,
tk bleh ngedit slalu..pasai lappy aku kena msk bengkel skg..
*sad*
skg nih kt opis, curi masa jap..ngeh3..

buhsan+gersang tnpa lappy aku!! huh??!!!

rehat jap..jom layannn~~~

minna!! break jap dr keje2 yg bertimbun tu..
jom dgr lagu nih...an old song from utada hikaru called First Love..
this is the 1st japanese song that i heard back then in 1999...
mula2 dgr kt MTV Ampuh (it is MTV Indonesia actually)...
vj sarah sechan slalu tyg lagu nih so i think she was quite popular kt indonesia kot dat time...

then, from this channel laa (waktu tuh masih thn '99) aku blaja dgr lagu2 indon2 which is i really love and enjoy indonesian musics...waktu 2 malay bands slalu nyanyi lagu slow2..i kinda dont like at all!!! then, after dh byk tau psl indonesia songs, aku slalu pulak dgr radio frekuensi red104.9 slot dj KC Ismail...yeah!! itulah radio feberet aku...sampaikan akibat terlalu suka dgr lagu2 indon (which is waktu tuh...lagu2 indon mmg tk byk msk pasaran msia..bkn mcm skg..), so abang2 aku slalu buli aku, slalu ejek aku..kata aku suka boyan!! haha..ape kureng nyer abg!! tp, aku tk ksh...asal aku suka, aku enjoy..aku tk ksh diorg nk ckp ape...haha..at last, skg diorg lak yg suka lagu indon..dulu tknk layan sgt huh??!!

ok, its time to enjoy~~~

ok laa...jaa ne~~

hectic life huh??!!

minggu nih, berusaha nya aku nk menyelesaikan paper yg nk kena anta ke conference...
tido tk menentu, memerap memerah otak mmbaca paper2 conference dolu2..betapa hectic nyer idup aku..klaka tul!!
haha..tgk laa betapa bersepahnya bilik aku..penuh dgn kertas2, paper2 sbg references...

kalo paper aku buat nih lepas..haha, aku akan g ke langkawi laa nmpknya bln 6...yea!! naik flight!! hehhe..berangan lg..

tp pg smlm smpt lg aku lari g kino klcc sorg2...aya keje, ros bz..so aku pon redah jelaa sorg2...hehe...g kino semata2 bli j-mag kt bwh ni...haha..i love it!!!

pastuh, minggu nih kena attend kelas ngaja, kelas master, assignment bdk2 lg, assignment master lg...conference paper lg...project master, project dr lg, yea2...mmg ini laa gaya hidpku spnjg 2minggu nih..hahha..

whateva pon..aku enjoy, aku hepi...hidup tk semestinya mudah kan??? beban diberi masih mampu ditanggung...so tak kan terusik nya semangat aku..cewahh!!!

yg penting jaga kesihatan wawa!! haha..aku mkn masih kenyang perut cuma tido jerk tk lena...

oklaa..sekian~~

.............................tp kan, aku still tk tinggl rancangan2 feveret aku kt keyhole tv..^^. .yuuhuuuu!!...

huh??!!

hehe..
dh lama tk update...sbb..
1. masa berlalu sgt laa pantas..sdr2 dh dkt 2weeks aku tk update rupanya..
2. gmba aktiviti2 aku disimpan dlm camera hp aya and ewoss..diorg tkmo bg aku lg gmba2 tuh!!
3. sibuk ngn mcm2..semua kena settle by this month..huhu!!
4. xde rs keinginan pon nk mengupdate hari2...byk pk mende lain..

ok sekian~~

jom jalan-jalan kt kg aku...=)

hehe..kali ni aku post gmba2 masa aku jogging ngn lily sabtu lepas..
kitorg start jogging kul 7.30am, masih kabus, walau hari dh terang...
even dh abes tour kg pon dlm kul 8.40am, still berkabus lg...best tul!!

nih skola rendah aku..hari2 teruja ngn "Syabas! Anda hadir ke sekolah hari ini"..hehe.. ni lak, simpang ke skola..nmpak tk kabus tuh?? time ni dlm kul 8.15am cmtuh..nih sungai depan umah, seberang tuh main town...dulu2 slalu banjir kt umah,sungai ni laa yg melimpah tuh..

sekolah, opis, opis, mall

nih opis mak aku...br 2thn upgrade dr majlis-->perbandaran..kabus tebal kt blkg tuh..

nih lak main road..laluan utama nak ke bandar bentong..

nih main library...besar tul..masih dlm kawasan kg aku..
nih lak pencawang tnb yg wujud kt ujung kg aku..
surau
nih lak tadika dan taski aku kecik2 dulu..
nih lak, umah tinggalan arwah aki dan wan..masa raya, kitorg ramai2 kumpul sini laa..
depan umah tinggalan arwah aki dan wan, ada JKR lak..
kabus lagi.... taman tmpt budak2 main jongkang-jongkit, gelongsor...
tennis court
view depan umah aku..
penglipur lara dan lebli kezen nya...